The incredible disappearing me....

Well, guess I really dropped the ball on my blog.....

It's been over a year since I last wrote here. Reading my first two posts I can't believe how much has changed.

Shortly after that last post a friend of mine miscarried for the first time. I was happy to be there for her since I knew her pain. It didn't make anything better that three friends of ours announced their pregnancies right after she miscarried and around the one year anniversary of my miscarriage. "It's so unfair!" we exclaimed. "Why does everyone else get to have this so easily, but we don't?"

A month later, I got pregnant. I didn't know for sure until early November, but then we knew!!! We were having a baby....first came the excitement....then the guilt. How could I tell my friend...she was still grieving for her recent loss. I decided that I wouldn't hide anything from her, but rather talk to her about it and help her through it. It seemed to go pretty well. She had recovered much better than I had from the miscarriage. Unfortunately, another friend of ours got pregnant about the same time I did which didn't help her cope. And then the worst happened in the spring, my friend had a second miscarriage.

She has amazed me though. Her ability to recover and bounce back was so much greater than mine was. I don't know if I could have been as positive after a second time as she was. She just kept getting right back on that horse. I'm so proud of her and how strong she is. Oh, and I'm happy to report that she is now six months pregnant and just found out she's having a baby girl.

As for me, my own little girl arrived in July after plenty of issues (illness, loss of 50 pounds during pregnancy and gestational diabetes) and a somewhat lengthy birthing process (induction for 20 hours followed by a c-section). I will never complain though. She is the best thing that ever happened to us.

I'm currently trying to be a WAHM. Only two days in and I'm still trying to figure out my schedule, but it's a work in process right. Things will change as my little one grows and wants to do new and different things.